How does one describe the feeling of being on the brink of a new adventure?
I don’t know that I have the words to describe how things feel right now. I am aware that I am about to begin a lot of change. My wife is pregnant with our fifth child. The due date is August 29th, but with a history of having babies a couple of weeks early, we could be meeting our newest treasure any day now.
I love being a father and each new child has been such a blessing, but there is still some nervousness and excitement as we get close. Will she love me right away? Will I be a good partner for my wife during labor? Will the kids be OK while we’re at the hospital? Will we get any sleep once we bring her home?
I am also approaching (hopefully) entering a new job. As God as seen us through every hurdle since we stepped out in faith to launch this ministry, He has also shown me that there is work He wants me to do outside of the ministry. The skills and gifts He has blessed me with in business are His to use, and He has shown me it is time to use them again.
As I write, I have completed two successful interviews in the last two weeks and I am waiting to receive an offer from one of the employers. Inside, I am at the same time excited, nervous, anxious to get started, praying for the changes in our family dynamic, and looking forward to serving a new group of people. Most of all, I am finding myself impatient!
In my mind, ideally I would like to know that I have the job, when I start, and what is required between now and then. I would like to know when our baby is coming, to be assured that she will be healthy, to be assured that my wife will be OK, and to know when I we will be back home with the kids. For me, one of the greatest comforts I long for is security, knowing all the things that I don’t know right now.
As I contemplated these feelings, God led me to the following passage:
“Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.” (2 Corinthians 4:16-18)
Like every other challenge I have faced in this life, the simple answer is to keep my eyes on God. God knows what will happen with our baby. God knows what job I will get, and when I will get it. God knows how to provide stability to our finances and our family.
Rather than looking for the answers I want, God reminds to look at Him, the one who has all the answers.
Do you find yourself looking for answers, or looking for God?
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